The signs are all around us
Last night, just before I went to bed, a very old photograph fell out of a drawer. It was very strange because there are no other photos in that drawer and I don’t recall ever seeing it in there before. It was a tiny photo booth size photo of my ex husband and I when I was 18.
As a huge believer in the Law of Attraction, I’m quite sure that this happened for a reason but I’m not sure what it is yet. But it’s made me take a minute to reflect on my life – and maybe that is the reason for the photo.
26 years ago today, I met my my ex husband. It was my 18th birthday and I was sitting at the bar in Majorca with a friend drinking champagne cocktails. Because I could. We were supposed to be going to a club but she held us back because she was talking to some guy. And so we met.
At 18, I was feisty, opinionated, a party animal and a free spirit. My dad often jokes about my extra tiny mini skirt with the zip up the front which only just covered what it needed to. He looked at me and told me that I wasn’t going out in that. My response? “Watch me”.
19 years of “married bliss”?
Nope. It really wasn’t. I’ve made no secret of this fact. What started out as a whirlwind romance pretty quickly turned into Domestic Violence. And I didn’t see it. It was mostly emotional abuse which is so much easier to hide. I was one of those people who that just wasn’t going to happen to – I wouldn’t let it. I was so wrong.
But that’s not what I want to remember today.
Your thoughts create reality
Even with my past, I am grateful for the opportunity to grow. I wouldn’t be me without that experience. I wouldn’t be able to help other people so much without getting it, feeling it and understanding it.
I am immensely grateful to have 2 of the most mature, caring teenagers who are feisty at times, grumpy at times and one of whom eats me out of house and home. They have a genuinely kind nature. Even if I could throttle them at times.
I am grateful for the mental labrador who makes me smile every day and who is currently lying upside down on the rug, growling at his bone. I’m even grateful for the grumpy cat who still makes me laugh and makes my kids regularly say “I can’t believe we’ve got a cat”. I hate cats.
I have kept a roof over our heads even when times were really tough.
My life lessons serve me well. Yes, they really do. I am incredibly happy with my life now. I have the most amazing people around me. I have the best job in the world. And I have peace in my life.
At 44 (today) I am chilled, positive and a bit of a closet hippy.
Who do you have around you?
I’ve created this circle of people around me who support me, laugh at me (kindly), kick me up the rear when I need it and love me unconditionally. They lift me up and never knock me down. And I love them all so much.
But what do your circle of people say about you? Are they lifting you up? Supporting you? Or are they draining you and dragging you down?
The best place to start at improving your life, your surroundings is by starting with you. Boosting your own self esteem is where it all starts and that’s what I’ve been doing since I learned hypnotherapy with so many people.
Let go of your past and embrace your future. And if you need help with that,
As for my ex? I let him go with love a long time ago. Because there is no place for hatred in my life.